Cultivate it

Make a list of what you get mocked for. The intensity. The quiet. The weird hobby. The way you care about things too visibly.

Cocteau says: that is the signal. Everyone else is being sanded down to roughly the same shape, and the parts of you that will not sand are the only parts worth keeping.

Being disliked by the right people is not a problem to fix. It is proof you have not finished erasing yourself.